PREGNANT!

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Omg, I'm pregnant.

I found out right away. I took a test before I was even late on May 20th 2018. 

I always wanted to have a big family. I grew up with parents who were so on again off again and we moved so much. I was only an only child and I hated it. I longed for siblings. Finally my mom had my brother when I was 10 and my sister when I was 12. I loved having siblings, but the age gap was hard. I was more of an angsty teenage baby sitter who resented them! It made for great birth control as the experience made me DEF not want to become a teen mom. Now we are tight but I grew up feeling like an only child. I wanted to have children close enough in age to have each other to play with and grow with! I spent my 20's in unserious relationships which didn't bring me solid relationships or marriage or anything like that. When I got pregnant with Fisher at 29 years old, it wasn't planned. We tried to make it work, but we were just we not a good fit. We have co-parented since he was 6 months old. The years went by, I had relationships (even a marriage and divorce ) come and go and no babies on the horizon. I wanted a family, but I longed for a REAL relationship and mutually loving partnership MORE. I wanted a planned baby and a solid partner. Otherwise I could of had a baby anytime. I was happy with my life where I was at. It was that I longed for a FAMILY not just the baby. I had started to make peace with the fact that one son was maybe going to it for me. I was 37 and so focused on ME and growing into a better person that it just didn't seem like it was gonna happen. 

Then Jacob came back into the picture. I say, BACK in because Ive known him for years through mutual friends. We reunited earlier this year and started dating and moving pretty fast. It felt right so we went with it! We both have sons from previous relationships and talked about having another child together someday. I decided to get off my birth control as I had NO idea how long it could take. In my profession of hair and health coaching, I have talked in great detail to many many women over 30 who struggle with infertility. It's so sad! I know that even when two healthy people TRY, it can take months, sometimes years to happen! Not in our case. It happened immediately.  And now here we are! I am SO excited but also SCARED. I don't know if you are ever READY to be a parent. Even if you already have children! We still have debt to pay off, a house to save for and work to do but we also have a lot of love and know we can do this. 

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The boys are THRILLED! I told Fisher by asking him to read this sign that I made and he started crying out of happiness and Ripley who is 3 years old got a little confused and thought we were trying to make him STAY a baby. This ultrasound was at 6 weeks and it was just a tiny little blob but they were able to identify and show us the heart. 

So here we are today! 10 and 1/2 weeks and I am still striving to keep up with my health and fitness. My goal is so have a healthy pregnancy and delivery and a healthy baby!

8 and 9 weeks first bump pics! 

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8 weeks

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 9 weeks 

9 weeks 

 9 weeks! 

9 weeks!